Sometimes It Is Hard To Understand

Clyde and Katie on playgroundWhen our dog Katie died unexpectedly a few weeks ago while we were on vacation, we experienced a lot of sadness. Coming home, we entered a house without Katie to greet us and mourned her absence. But since Katie was almost 17 years of age—which is old for a dog—we’d known she couldn’t live forever and we’d already witnessed signs of aging. So when she passed on peacefully in her sleep, we were thankful she‘d never had to suffer. We were prepared.

But for someone else there was no preparation . . . no explanation . . . no understanding of why his friend of 10 long years was suddenly gone.
Our other dog Clyde.

Clyde and Katie had been what I called “partners in crime.” They had a relationship that spurred one another on to adventure whenever they managed to get out on their own. Clyde was the mischievous, energetic one, but Katie was the quiet explorer who nosed out new escapades and dared to explore new smells, leading them into uncharted territory—but only if she had Clyde’s spirited vigor at her side, prodding her on. Neither would go alone; only together. They’d return, of course, often covered with mud, but always looking happy at having encountered a new adventure, while meekly enduring their inevitable scolding with sheepish resignation. They were quite a pair.

So when we returned home from vacation with Clyde, he immediately began going from room to room, tail wagging, searching through the house.

Looking.

But the house was empty with no friend to greet him. For the next few days, he lingered expectantly by the door each time one of us went out, waiting for our return. During the day he moped around, head and tail down, looking dejected and gloomy. At night he slept by the front door. He didn’t eat, his usual vitality and sparkle gone.

There was no way we could explain to him what had happened, why his friend was gone. He didn’t understand, and without his having the words, the vocabulary, and the grasp of concepts beyond his comprehension, we couldn’t help him make sense of Katie’s absence. So we just loved on him as much as we could, gave him more attention, took him to the dog park, and got him together with other dog friends, hoping that he would eventually recover from his loss and recapture his previous vivaciousness. We didn’t know if he would actually forget, but hopefully, time would heal.

As I watched Clyde suffer and felt my own helplessness to make things better for him, my thoughts drifted, and I thought about us as humans and our own limited understanding.

Maybe sometimes we’re like Clyde.

When our world collapses around us and things don’t make sense, perhaps it’s simply because our own understanding is so very imperfect. We flounder around trying to figure out why we face the circumstances we do, but to no avail.

But there is Another whose mind is higher than ours, whose understanding no one can fathom. He sees it all clearly and knows us and our circumstances fully.

Even though His thoughts and ways are far beyond our understanding, He has tried to communicate with us and help us understand through His Word. But still our minds cannot fully comprehend His purposes. “Now I know in part;” says Paul in 1 Corinthians 13:12, “then I shall know fully, even as I am fully known.”

God has a perspective that is higher than ours. What is a mystery to me is all too clear to Him. At such times, we need to nestle close to God, sit at His feet, and trust Him so He can love us and guide us through our confusion.

Then, like Clyde, we can eventually heal and rediscover a brand new enthusiasm for life.

“For My thoughts are not your thoughts,
Nor are your ways My ways,” says the LORD.
“For as the heavens are higher than the earth,
So are My ways higher than your ways,
And My thoughts than your thoughts.”
Isaiah 55:8-9

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Treasures at our feet

Do We See Them or Are We Caught in the Frenzy?

Blue Easter egg - biggerCOLORED EGGS OF EVERY HUE  lay scattered over the green expanse of lawn before us. Our daughters stood behind a stretch of rope along with hundreds of other children from town, waiting for the start of the event.  This was the local Easter egg hunt, and all the children were excited in anticipation of finding as many goodies as they could.

When the signal was given and the rope dropped, the children stampeded into the center of the field—all except for one—our six-year-old daughter Julie. While hordes of children scrambled over the field looking for eggs, Julie took a single step and picked up an Easter egg lying just inside the ropes, directly in front of her. Then she continued into the field, picking up eggs as she went—ones passed up by the other children as they had hurried together towards the treasures they spied beyond.

My husband and I chuckled, amused and proud at the wisdom of our little girl.

Today as I think back on that day and picture my daughter standing alone at the edge of the field to take advantage of the treasures at her feet, it makes me think.

How many times am I like that throng of children racing into the center of the field, looking for something to enrich my life, while missing the very special blessings God has put right before me in that moment? Have I really seen—and appreciated—the beauty of flowers blooming and birds singing, the richness of a special relationship in my life, or the provision of daily sustenance needed for that day?  Have I seen the beauty of what lies right in front of me?

Yesterday, as I tried to unscramble a colossal mess of conflicting schedules I had created for myself because of too much busyness, I heard that still small voice in my heart whispering from the Word.  “Be still and know that I am God.”  (Psalm 46:10) As those words of truth settled over me, I realized that if I brought my confusion to God and put it into His hands He would sort it out. After all, He’s omnipotent. He knows what’s happening. And, in fact, He knew about the mess I’d made before I found out about it.

And so I sat down with His Word and allowed Him to put His peace into my heart. And as my mind stopped racing in “fix it” mode, I could see that His plans were not my own.  His agenda was different.  I let some things go, and everything fell into place.

Sometimes when we’re in a frenzy to figure things out and solve our problems, God asks us to just ”Be still and know that I am God.”  (Psalm 46:10) When our hearts and minds are quiet before Him, we’re better able to listen for His voice and hear when He wants to point us in a new direction.  When we wait on Him, our eyes can refocus so they can see with more clarity the path He’s laying out before us.

Who knows?  His provision might be right in front of us. But we haven’t been able to see it because we’re so intent on trying to reach the “Easter eggs” in the distance.

During this holy Easter week, quiet your mind and allow yourself to fully see the God who loves you so much that He was willing to walk the dark path of death so we can be with Him in life.  Take some time out from your busy schedule. Stop wrestling with the worries that hold you hostage.  Be still and know that He is God.

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God’s Unhappy Children

I LOVE THE WAY EVERYDAY LIFE often allows us to peer into the more eternal truths of God.

When I was a new mother I remember one afternoon my two-month old baby fell asleep in my arms while I was nursing her. I was overjoyed to see her finally slumbering because our biggest struggle as new parents had been getting our newborn to sleep. The doctor had recently told me she was only getting about half the amount of sleep she needed, and I was concerned for her health.

After holding her a few minutes longer, I carried her into her bedroom and laid her down for a nap. Pulling the blanket over her small body, I tucked her in and smiled at the sweet face with eyes closed in sleep, peeking out from beneath the top of the blanket.

I sighed gratefully.

Fifteen minutes later I heard a wee cry and went to investigate.  She was awake.  I patted her, gently rocked her bassinet, and carefully placed the pacifier in her mouth.  However, increasingly irate because I was not picking her up and only patting her, she began to cry louder and louder, shaking her little head back and forth.

I tried to soothe her and spoke to her in my most understanding, new-motherly way.  “You need to sleep,” I said, “you desperately need more sleep. Mommy loves you and I’m right here, but you need to sleep.”

Of course, she could not understand my words.  She only knew that she wanted to be picked up, held, and loved, and this was not happening.  She was not getting what she wanted so she continued to knot up her little fists, kick at her blanket, and cry.

Later as I stood over the sink washing dishes and trying not to feel guilty about letting her cry, I thought about how my unhappy child was so like all of us. As God’s children we cry for Him to do something, and when he doesn’t do it the way we expect, we continue to cry out, ignorant of His presence beside us and all the while thinking He doesn’t care.  Even though He tries to calm and soothe us with Words of assurance, we don’t understand that what we want is not what He, in His sovereignty, knows is best for us at this time.  He asks us to dry our tears, to trust Him, and try to understand why He has put us where we are.  But we knot our fists and shake our head, questioning him again and again as to His indifference.

Isaiah 40:26-31 says:

Lift your eyes and look to the heavens; Who created all these? He who brings out the starry host one by one, and calls them each by name. Because of his great power and mighty strength, not one of them is missing. Why do you say, O Jacob, and complain, O Israel, “My way is hidden from the Lord; my cause is disregarded by my God?” Do you not know? Have you not heard? The Lord is the everlasting God, the Creator of the ends of the earth. He will not grow tired or weary, and his understanding no one can fathom. He gives strength to the weary and increases the power of the weak. Even youths grow tired and weary, and young men stumble and fall; but those who hope in the Lord will renew their strength. They will soar on wings like eagles; they will run and not grow weary, they will walk and not be faint.

And Philippians 4:5-7 goes on to remind us:

The Lord is near. Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your request to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.

 

 

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